Well. Where do I begin?
I am at a total loss as to how I should go about fixing my imperfections. I don't even know what parts of me are imperfections vs. personality quirks. I've lost myself again. Why does everyone else want to change me? I don't know who to trust... I can't even trust myself. One day I might want to be little miss homemaker, sewing and baking and cleaning house, and if you ask me on that day what I want to do with my life, I'll tell you I'd be content in this quiet state for the rest of my days. Then a week or so later, I'll be miss restless adventurer, discontented and searching for something more than what ordinary existence has to offer, and ready to give up altogether if that something more isn't really there. Will I ever stabilize? Is this normal for people my age? I bounce from kick to fickle kick, and all my perspectives bounce with me. I'm so tired of it. Somebody please tell me it gets better.
See me
Through my camo, through the leaves
Through emotional disease
Can you see me
See me
Through my barriers, my lies
Through my elegant disguise
Can you see me
Look into my soul and tell me why I'm still alive
Reach into my heart and cherish all you find inside
Hold me in your arms until I've nothing left to try
Don't let me let you go
Take me
Should I venture past my walls
Should they crumble, should they fall
Can you take me
Take me
Should I risk it one more time
Should your heart connect with mine
Can you take me
Look into my soul and tell me why I'm still alive
Reach into my heart and cherish all you find inside
Hold me in your arms until I've nothing left to try
Don't let me let you go
Love me
In the best and in the worst
Ease my hunger, quench my thirst
Can you love me
Love me
In the days, the months and years
Guard my fortress, dry my tears
Can you love me
Look into my soul and tell me why I'm still alive
Reach into my heart and cherish all you find inside
Hold me in your arms until I've nothing left to try
Don't let me let you go
Please, don't let me let you go
Written by Joy Davis. All rights reserved.
